About love

An angel's thoughts on love and humanity

Love does come with many implications. Love will be your undoing. Love will cause you to change your behavior, slowly but surely it will undue all of your wounds and will not allow you to live in brokenness… - Marcus

If you’d like to deepen the immersion, you can listen to this song as you read, it’s one of the go-to songs that I often listen to that aids me with my dives…

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About love

I closed my eyes and saw Marcus standing amidst large floating orbs of white light. They were at least twice the size of a basketball. They hovered in the air gently bobbing slightly up and down like something suspended in the ocean, they seemed to have a kind of buoyancy to them.

“What are those?” I asked.

“Don’t worry about it,” he replied. “What do you want to know?” Marcus asked me, the question catching me off guard since he usually has a topic he wants to tell me about and largely guides our conversations. Open ended questions like this are very rare.

“Well, many things, but also I’m tired, it feels like we’ve been running at a pace that is hard to sustain. Yet at the same time I keep hoping that these lessons will lead somewhere, so sometimes I throw myself into them even when I’m overwhelmed because I hope that we can finally start becoming part of the kingdom.”

“And that right there is the problem Little Spit Fire, you are trying to get into the kingdom, wanting to be part of it. And you do not realize that you already are a part of it. You are like a rejected child trying desperately to get into their own family, but you must realize that you have already been brought into this one.”

“Then why do we feel useless? And why doesn’t it feel like we’re in it some days?”

“Isn’t a child useless in their family? Yet they are loved. A father does not have children so that they can help him, certainly they cannot right away. He does have a family because he has a life that he wants to bring someone into. There is a subtle but important difference here, between handing someone a legacy {culture} and wanting someone to finish your life’s work.”

I nodded.

“A father should have children to give them gifts, one of those gifts is likely to be ways (of life). It is never to fill any of his own needs. He will experience joy, but this is the joy of the giver. He may have hopes for them, but it is not because he wants them to do anything. It is desires that they flourish and that they receive the gifts he has for them. The ways of life, the wealth, the love, the abundance. It is like the parable where the wealthy land owner (yes that is a king,) gives talents to his servants and one of the servants will not receive them. This servant does not use the talents to bring himself joy, or even to bring anyone else joy either, which could of at least been an alternative. He instead essentially throws the talents away, leaving them to rust in the ground. His master was greatly displeased by this. Why? It is not because the king wanted him to invest and to have gained profit for himself, it is because he gave the man an opportunity at joy and he rejected it. He could have chosen to have a business that gave him joy like the other two did, but instead he insisted on acting impoverished even though he had the opportunity to do otherwise. God hates it when we demand that we be poor and be treated as such! Many reject God not because they perceive him as cruel or scary or because they think he will want to boss them around, but because he is good. You humans have a strange proclivity to reject goodness and demand harsh treatment. Look at how love was rejected at mount Sinai and the law demanded. Look at how Father was rejected and a king over Israel was also demanded, one who would call them off to war and tax them. These things are horrors, yet one can get used to horrors.

The hardest choice in life, is not to accept just punishment, or to endure hardships, it is to accept love. Lavish, abundant love.

This is the hardest choice for people and many reject it opting for different arrangements instead, and these arrangements may look like love. In fact they like it that way, they like it when their ways look like love yet it does not come with the implications that love carries.”“You see, love does come with many implications. Love will be your undoing. Love will cause you to change your behavior, slowly but surely it will undue all of your wounds and will not allow you to live in brokenness - She {-Marcus was referring here to The Holy Spirit as love} is particularly stubborn about this.

Love will bring you out of poverty and into abundance every time. Love will lift the oppressed and dejected and raise them up into someone with strength and confidence. Love makes something of people.

Even if they are a simple person, love will place character in them and thus make them worthwhile. Love is the heal-all. It is the elixir everyone searches for in mythos, yet they look for fountains -memories of river that flows from Father, but the type who search physically for it are often the type who would not drink from Father’s river even if they found it.”

“The river is not so hard to find, it can bubble up within you. Yet most reject this idea, it cannot come from within them, for that is offensive. It wars against their tarnished nature and their perceptions of themselves, of others and of the world. It cannot be so, for that would be incredible. So they push the idea aside. It is easier to think you are evil or depraved, than to think you are truly good.”

“Even narcissists do not think they are good, they think more that whatever they want is good. And they think everyone behaves like them, they have not taken to the time to evaluate whether this behavior that they believe everyone has (since everyone is like them,) is evil or good, it simply is. Their thoughts do not reach so deep. They do not ponder the merit or virtue of things, they simply act on impulse, ‘I am like you and you are like me, thus there is no right or wrong, no difference, except that today I will be the one who wins and gets what they want.’ That is something of how the assumption goes. They see the world, and that is how it is. There is no questioning the state of things, or that their thinking (and perception) could be askew, that is not even a thought that crosses their mind.”

“Spiritual seekers dig for truth and seek to align things to it, sensing that things could be hidden or different.

Narcissists never do this. They do not question if things are as they appear on the most superficial glance that is possible. No, that is simply how it is, there is no questioning that. It is kind of like ‘might is right’ thinking, except in this case ‘might’ is: superficial observation centered through their own experiences and impulses; and these are ‘right.’ Their ‘sight is right,’ in this scenario. If they can manipulate you to get what they want -which is a different kind of might, than that must also be right. But enough on that for now.”

“I bring all this up because I need to make a contrast, what I have just told you about is the path of rejecting love, in the extreme. {This is a multi-generational path.} Love expands your heart and makes you feel a great many things, even the things of others. This is why Father’s heart is the biggest, because he feels for every creature that exists. He has love for them, which also means empathy. You cannot have the love that Father has poured into your heart without a measure of empathy. So the cure for a hard heart is that Father must pour his love, the mysterious, spiritual kind, into someone’s heart for another. These are the bonds of love that connect the church. Not the institutional church, the body that Christ talks about. See, a body is knitted together by flesh, and does it not talk about God wanting to take people’s hearts of stone and transform it into flesh? So, does it not stand to reason that the only way you could grow individual people into a body together is to knit them together with flesh? This means new flesh must be grown, the heart, or rather the kidney, is the thing that feels these deep emotions. (*Some ancient cultures viewed the kidney’s as the wellspring of deep emotions and the heart was a place for shallower emotions and also for some thoughts.)

It is interesting then to look at the physical functions of the kidneys. The kidneys, filter things in the body excreting urine and balancing electrolytes. Electrolytes are the balancers of life, so if your electrolytes are good your body tends to be fit and healthy. But if they are poor, your life is drained. Likewise it eliminates the day-to-day toxins in your life. Deep emotions help do that too, for when you feel for someone with your kidneys the little offenses of life are filtered and excreted out. The kidneys also house the adrenals which are the regulators of hormones, another balancer of life. Isn’t it interesting then, that hormones can encourage you to feel certain ways, and these too are linked to the kidneys – the place where you feel things deeply? Perhaps the same way that your culture says things like ‘it made my heart skip a beat, or, it stopped my heart, or made my heart flutter’ all these being caused by emotions. Perhaps emotions greatly affect your hormones, less so than the other way around.”

“So isn’t it interesting that empathy can likewise make you feel a great many things? This is not a coincidence. There are verses that talk about enlarging the heart that would be better translated as “enlarging the kidneys,” which actually can grow a bit in a human, but this is not acknowledged in the mainstream medical except when it is due to illness.”

“When you are filled with empathy, you are filled with life, as long as you are also able to excrete it {the feelings empathy brings} properly.

This is an image of the function of the kidneys. And so this helps us connect to flawed individuals and makes it all work. If your metaphorical kidneys are functioning properly then you can handle some toxins and remain healthy and connected.”

“Now, let us return to love. Love does not demand anything of another. This must be said, because Father does not demand anything of you. It is easy to think one needs to be valued by the right people to be taken care of by them, but that is wrong, one simply needs to be loved by the right individuals. Father loves his children, he does not demand that they ‘please him’ nor does he require them to somehow add value to the kingdom. You do not have children to add to your value as a family – at least you shouldn’t, you should have them because you want someone to love and be generous to. Children are often had in younger years when there is a generosity of the body, but the elders should have a generosity of spirit and wisdom to impart to them. And in this way, this is the role of elders and grandparents. Even today in your own broken culture, many grandparents still rejoice over their grandchildren, more than they did their own children. This is because they long to impart things to them, though they may be misguided about what things to impart {meaning it is possible that they may not even know what to do with their excitement over their grandchildren or actually have much wisdom to impart to them in an every changing technological landscape.}”

“People become ‘valuable’ in the kingdom after they feel loved by Father. Not the other way around. You must make peace with this and not strive against it. I am not saying you cannot do things. But you must cease from striving.”

“When you were recovering from your years of illness and striving those were your worst efforts, but you have now bloomed into something helpful. It must be the same with others, if they want to receive God’s love and relationship with him, they must allow themselves to become vulnerable and ‘useless’ (unable to contribute much for a time) they must not try too hard to fight against this. Then as God heals them, they will blossom into something amazing. I know it is hard, and I know what a long journey this has been for you, I am not making light of that. I am simply showing how to cooperate with the process. It is hard to be naked before God, yet marriage is the illustration used for a reason. (It does not mean we must be naked before all men, but with God there is a vulnerability and trust between both ourselves and God.)

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Dive date: Nov 29 2024